so, lucy's final appointment is tomorrow at 2:30. i have put it off long enough. she's not getting better, just because i keep putting it off.

it is destroying me. i was broken hearted when my grandma died. as horrible as it might sound, i think i will miss lu more. i adored my grandma, and she was amazing, but i didn't see her every day.

lucy is my constant companion. she is my everything. she has been the best dog in the world, and tomorrow, i have to say goodbye to her.

i just don't know what else to say, so once again, i just sit here, crying.